"In the past 3 1/2 years; with the help of God, Darren, Bill (St.Cyr) and dreamwork... I have found my voice, realized that I am worthy, that I am loved, that I matter. Dreamwork has taught me how to separate my feelings from situations. I used to be in it, now I can recognize that I don't need to carry or own what's not mine to carry. I have done a lot of self work, and I recognize when others have inserted themselves into other peoples lives, because it's far easier than looking into the terrifying, vulnerable mirror.
I sometimes hear things like... I don't remember my dreams. I don't dream. In one of my most recent dreams I stood "outside" of my own dream as I watched a baby being dropped. It was painful. But as we worked with it I realized that it wasn't my responsibility.
Also; metaphorically speaking, 48 years ago when my mom chose my twin sister from the crib because she was the easier baby; I was the "dropped baby". What brought me to dream work 3 1/2 years ago was because my grandson was taken to Vancouver (far away from me) by his mother. My son kind of "dropped the baby". This is an amazing and terrifying roller coaster ride. I had no idea what type of "trauma" in my life it would take for me to finally look into the mirror and get "real" help.
I have been in and out of therapy since I was 14 years old. I saw school counselors, I saw clinicians, I told my story over and over, but I've never felt heard. It was not until I started doing dreamwork and looking at my life, my trauma, through the perspective of analyzing my dreams with Darren that everything made sense; terrifying, vulnerable, naked, soul wrenching sense."